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Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Standing at the Crossroads

 I am finding myself standing at a crossroads with my blog with out a map,a clue or sense of direction.16 months and 200 and 40- some postings later I am at a standstill, rubbing the back of my head the way I do when I am stumped,then my hands go into my pockets like I am searching for the answer lost in the jumble of junk I carry and pace the floor.I must look like some oddball,you know the ones you see on the street talking to themselves gesturing to an unseen audience,the ones you cross the street mid block to avoid interacting with.Those lost souls of society.
  As a blog writer I can actually say I can relate to that lost soul talking to that unseen audience,gesturing and posing questions to people who never respond.And as the conversation becomes one sided the gesturing becomes more and more animated,hands flapping,keys clicking and the face morphing through every emotion known to mankind.In a final moment of dismay the hands fly heavenward with a BAH! One hand drops and the other reaches to rub the back of the head with the hopes that the soothing touch will lure a thought forward.
    But I do have some sanity left,some where in the back of my mind amongst the jumble of knowledge,stories and dreams,it is there.I have enough sanity left to know that I really can't go on talking to myself the way I have been,it's not healthy.I had this idea that this blog could become a dialog with what readers would come but some how I am stuck in this monologue.A self directed monologue which does not work well, just ask any actor.Without input how do you know if anyone can hear you way at the back?

9 comments:

  1. o no Rois! I read your blog all the time, as do several of my friends .... true, I don't respond much .... but then i am not the writer you are. You give us many good ideas, my dear, as well as beautiful pix and interesting info .... your analogy to acting is apt ..... but sometimes actors on the stage can't 'feel' the audience and it doesn't mean they're not listening ... it can mean they're listening Very Hard! ... don't stop ...

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  2. OH! I mostly don't post because I don't want you to be afraid that I am stalking you! Honestly it is also nice to know someone else is exactly (or pretty close) to where you are...trying to live a simpler life in this crazy world. Just knowing that I am not alone is such a comfort! When I struggle you have success or you share some insight on how you struggled through and I think to myself: the fight is worth it! I really admire you for being so honest to so many strangers, to be humble enough to share your defeats or mistakes, and you are centered enough to share your successes without being condescending or boastful. Currently I am trying to just get through this horrible weather with my first real garden (before this was all containers). To use little or no pesticides even though I have weeds everywhere and slugs by the millions. I am also hoping to can/preserve and wondering how you do it without being overwhelmed.

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  3. If it wasn't for your blogging, I wouldn't be giving things a shot around here and ESPECIALLY since I am in repayment of my student loans and need as many resources as possible. Besides, your pictures give me an appetite :)

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  4. You have many things within you that not only should be shared but need to be shared. I have spent many afternoons reading your thoughts and taking heart in your journey. I never would have baked homemade bread if it wasn't for you! Nor would I have come to call you a friend which I value deeply. Please keep writing.

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  5. I also read your blog! OK not a very long time, but I like it!!!!!! It would be lovely to keep reading your thoughts!

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  6. This rain has got to let up so you can get out of your house and out of your head!!! ptzzz, so there. And clearly I read it, otherwise I wouldn't be here giving you grief.

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  7. I love reading your blog. I love it because your posts help give me some hints as to how I'd like to shape my life. Every time you share your inner workings, it's like seeing …I don't know… that the things I love to read about in books are possible in the real world. Your monologue adds pleasure and inspiration to my day.

    You'd probably get bored if I responded to every post (maybe?) because it would be a lot of "Cool!" "Right on!" "Grooveh!" and, of course, "Damnit, I want chickens!" I share your blog with friends, proud to say that you're a friend, and I'd be sad if you stopped posting.

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  8. Me too! Keep writing. You show me a world that is totally different from my supermarket-packaged own.

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  9. I just recently started blogging and even more recently found your blog.
    I understand the desire for dialogue. And yet as a commenter I still haven't found my "voice".
    I suppose we are all in this together.

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